Saturday, December 29, 2012

A poem from a stranger :')

The final exam gonna start tomorrow. some will get excited to finish the second sem, some will feel like butterflies in their stomachs. as for me, i think i'm feeling the latter one. Suddenly i feels like wanna share this poem with all of you. it's kinda give me inspiration. thanks to a stranger who i've met virtually via . unfortunately i've forgotten his name. ahaks. but he's from Pakistan. :j

here comes the words of wisdom!

Stranger: When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest, if you must, but don't you quit.

Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about,
When he might have won had he stuck it out;
Don't give up though the pace seems slow--
You may succeed with another blow.

Often the goal is nearer than,
It seems to a faint and faltering man,
Often the struggler has given up,
When he might have captured the victor's cup,
And he learned too late when the night slipped down,
How close he was to the golden crown.

Success is failure turned inside out--
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far,
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit--
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.

do you understand the whole poem? i didnt really fathom it. :B but its meaningful for students like us. :)

Friday, December 21, 2012

Ring Ding Dong? hee.

assalam n good night. 

In accordance to yesterday's tragic moment, you know what. 21st december 2012 is just an epic fail and it is totally busted! such a disgrace for those whom really believe in it. we can be assured that Judgment Day will be at anytime, BUT not certain time because it's only Allah s.w.t who knows when it will happen. wallahualam.

in sudden, i got a not-so-brilliant idea to make as a topic. what? it is RING. an engagement ring? sort of kinda. haha unfortunately i never received any ring from anyone. oh well, i think it's not the time. to chill my heart, i managed to buy a ring. i bought it with my beloved friend, Syazwani :) 

Following trend? nahhh.

frankly, i was jealous when i saw other girls wearing those magnificent types of rings. i thought it must be from their friends, families or either boyfrengg? awwwsch so shweet. haha kidding. no offence, but i kinda feel it's absurd if the ring is from a boyfriend. short-minded? haa u can assume me that.

from my point of view, wearing a ring is not because i'm bajeting that i've taken by a guy. by this time, i'm trying to remind myself by wearing it. with this, i can recall myself for not having special feelings with other men, even it's a little infatuation. i have no one to be 'marked' as my husband-to-be, but i'm sure that i'll have one *in shaa Allah*. this ring is just to guide my feelings, that i'm a muslimah. and a muslimah, should not... make any adultery act, including heart adultery (zina hati). hmm with that words i've hit a nail on my head! :p

even though this ring cost less than 10hinggit, i just hope that it would be useful as what i've mentioned.

okey that's enough for explanation. i also heard that wearing ring is our Prophet's sunnah. So apa lagi. :D


Friday, December 14, 2012

Yes. i just need to wait

So powerful is this memory,
Keeping you so close to me,
My heart flees to you in a hurry,
Struggling I am to keep it steady.

He's not mine! He's  not mine!
What is he doing in my mind?
I shall not cross that Divine line,
I'll stand waiting, tortured by time.

O Allah, my heart is aching!
Pounding on the bars it's kept in,
The leash is nothing but a string,
Hands are bloody but still holding.

You know how much I want to let go,
Unleash this flesh to the one it misses so,
But this heart of mine I worship not, no!
I bow to the One who turns it - my Lord!
credit to aiman azlan

Accept yourself as YOU.

Let us grab some barakah from the piece of greet which is 


how wonderful it is if i can deliver the miracle word to the people around me even if i never knew them before. unfortunately, people would think i'm a weird person. i have less gut on that. bitter as gall. that's the reality of the world approaching the Judgement Day. nauzubillah :'(

revert to the main topic.
ever read this before?

Dari Abu Hurairah, Rasulullah shallallahu ‘alaihi wa sallam bersabda,
انظروا إلى من هو أسفل منكم ولا تنظروا إلى من هو فوقكم ، فهو أجدر أن لا تزدروا نعمة الله عليكم
“Pandanglah orang yang berada di bawahmu (dalam masalah harta dan dunia) dan janganlah engkau pandang orang yang berada di atasmu (dalam masalah ini). Dengan demikian, hal itu akan membuatmu tidak meremehkan nikmat Allah padamu.” (HR. Bukhari dan Muslim)

oh men. I'm kinda disappointed with myself; every time i'm unconsciously fascinated with others' superiority. i felt weak. yet the worst part i've ever faced was being overwhelmed with ungratefulness. fortuitously, i remembered this hadith. sense of gladness came shortly after that. alhamdulillah.

frankly, i don't prefer to see others' bless in their life. *jealous?* yes of course i am. girls are easily get jealous than boys and i admit it. you must think i'm a bad girl eh? ah lantak. i'm happy when my friends happy, but sometimes when they look like showing off their life blessings, eventhough it's not so significant *you know what i mean* i think it is something detestable. 

sorry i have no intention to hurt anyone. this is reality.

so people. let's be patient for the tests that Allah give us. if you have a sudden jealousy towards someone, just think that each blessings that we got, each of those have certain responsible for us to be undertaken.

imagine how Allah will ask us in the Judgment Day. by a breath, what benefit that we've done? :'(

in retrospect, i really like to see those 'perfect muslimah' out there. i know that they're just normal people like me, but they have something that i didn't have. shame on me. hope that one day i can be like them..

o heart. just be patient.

Sunday, December 9, 2012

how many years .

she bet he decided not to contact her anymore through any medium even facebook.
and she thought that is the best decision for him and herself.

So glad that he knew what to do. even if it hurt her. all that ran along that girl's mind is...

"is this over?"
"can i let others approach as my next choice?"
"will this far distance relationship works. without communication??" 
"what if...."

many undesirable whisper came. she was totally confused. yet she decided to ask someone who knew more about the person she care. a junior in his school.

"if you're meant to be with him, don't worry. Allah have decided each person with their own spouses in their lives.." he said suddenly, even he never knew what's in the girl's mind.

that simple word of wisdom reassured her for believing in miracles of Allah. yes, nothing is impossible. just that, if you're hoping so badly to make him your spouse one day, you'll probably get hurt, if that thing happens contradict to your wish. that's why, don't take 'soal jodoh' so seriously right now.

but she believes...

"bad women are for bad men, and bad men, for bad women - just as good women are for good men, and good men, for good women.." [surah an nur ayat 26]

yes. she always remembers the promise that He made. what should she do now? be a good girl. not just that, but to be a 'true muslimah'. a label which is so hard to be grabbed especially for a girl who is not used to be it from the beginning. she must try her best.

things got even worse when she knows that TODAY he will fly somewhere else, far away from this country. he will go, without leaving a word. he never told that he would be somewhere else. she knew, only from the junior on the day before. such a pathetic. 

somewhat, she ever felt annoyed. why he ever came to her life? why things must be like this? how she wished that she never knew him. because it hurts her now. and maybe gonna hurt her year after year. execrable, how execrable.

however, she tries to calm herself. there must be something behind all of these. everything happens for a reason. Allah tests each person with different challenges. He tests the Palestinians by physical means, and He tests us here, in Malaysia, mentally. people thought that both type of challenges are lopsided. in fact, either physically or mentally, both have internal abstract meanings. #ehhhh? ok what type of horrible sentence is this -.-"

well. what happen next? the girl needs to wait patiently. for about 6 years maybe? only Allah knows......

Saturday, December 1, 2012

Heaven on Earth.

assalamualaikum. please answer it even in your heart (for the mute people only) ihiks :3

alhamdulillah , i got strength to type for another post. this goodness verily from Allah s.w.t. 

honestly, i don't really understand myself. do you understand yourself? i bet you're lying to yourself if you say "yes" . ahaa.

i just got some lessons after attending an islamic program entitled Best Tarbiyah. it is just a small program handle by mahallah representive committee. and do you know whatttt....?

at the beginning i was hesitated to make my own way to the 'musolla mahallah' (surau ground floor hostel). i've asked few of my friends before that. unfortunately, none of them could follow me. me was really sad TT____TT . BUT, suddenly;

"Why must you go there if only you need someone accompany you?"

"This is only about you and your deeds (amalan) in the Judgment Day. your friend has nothing to do with you..."

"Don't make excuse for a good thing. It's only qarin's  whisper." 

Thanks to Allah that He gave me some kind of whisper which encourage me to go there by only me and myself. I stepped to the ground floor calmly then.

We've began with Taaruf (ice breaking). I was shocked to know that most of the participants are from mahallah zainab, not mahallah khadijah (where i live). Moreover, there are also from Mahsa College and UPM. it was a jaw-dropping one, to know their endeavor of going to cfs iium (from farther place than mine) just to join a small 'majlis ilm'. subhanallah. I should be really grateful to stay in a place with lots of 'majlis ilm' promoted everyday. not only me, also my friends here. yes, they should.

Along the program, i've met many friends here. not the ordinary one. most of them are very good in religion speech and also have strong faith in Islam. indeed, it's true what our Prophet s.a.w said, "majlis ilm is garden(heaven) on Earth". We can meet many muslimah with solehah personality, thus make them as our companion to get Allah pleasure, inshaa Allah :)

In fact, i was a very weak person. my iman could be up and down. when no one there to guide me, i would certainly get engrossed thus being neglect of any lagha things i've done. i would only do good deeds when someone invite me to. this is what they call 'iman ikut ikut'. nauzubillah. i'm trying to improve. inshaa Allah.

Eventually, the program ended up with a smile from the bottom of my heart. I got something that I've wished before this. I was really thankful to have a chance to mingle around with those girls. BUT that doesn't mean that my mission is completed yet. I still have many 'amanah' to be implemented. mostly amanah to convey truth to my family and friends around me. may Allah ease.

For those who felt their life has been even bored, better watch out your iiman. it may be fluctuated, or even worse, it may be decreased gradually from day to day. That's why, we need to be close to *at least* a soleh(ah) person. where to find? of course, in majlis ilm.. inshaa Allah :)

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

don't ever ever put yourself on that

assalamualaikum bloggers! specially for those "fake users" whose promoting advertisements on my blog. *ehh* may Allah bless all of you.

alhamdulillah, i got strength to type another post for anyone who want to read it. it's been one week since i've finished my final sem exam, and now i'm in holiday! suddenly my heart beats for this. my lovely dovely blog :3

nowadays, i brace myself to wear shawl. and after a while i've really been attracted to wear more of it! because it's simple. and i've made it to comfort the wearing of shawl. :)

and owh! i aint talking bout this. i really want to share my thought about this. something which we addicted to nowadays. guess what?

photo editing
boyfriend *ehh?*

okay those are just examples of things that might be addiction to the new generation of teenagers. once, i had been addicted to some of the above. i mean, sometimes i tweet a lot, the other day i fb-ing a lot. glad that i have no boyfriend *hihiu* so i need not worry or think about the boring boys stuffs *ehh*

so..... i bet some of you have the same prob as me. i always search for solutions so i can overcome any of the addiction to anything. as we know, when we addicted to something, we would spend majority of our pastimes on that thing. ONLY. Don't you thing that is something waste?? i do. and also, we will be a REALLY UNPRODUCTIVE people. unproductive in the term of using time. supposedly, in one day, we should have time to go for an exercise, reading books, learning new things, help our mother doing house chores, and other beneficial thing.

BUT what happen now is, most of the teenagers just sit on the chair/lay lazily on the bed while looking at the one and only screen. that screen could be laptop, tabs or the most recent one is the smartphone. :B

therefore, what should we do? there are many ways. we can think it ourselves. 

in short, it's up to each individual whether to surrender him/herself to technology OR to widen his/her perspective on the things living around him/her. i'm still on the gate *oops* but surely, i'm on my way to a better-life-with-less-internetcommunication . inshaa Allah, please pray for me and all other people who wants to change. :')

don't misunderstood! it's not something wrong to tweeting or using fb. just need to lessen the usage of things that we addicted so that we can balance all the things in our life. *except good deeds like performing ibadah* . all the best. :)

scratchscratch and finished! thank you for giving your 3minutes on this. c:

Saturday, August 25, 2012

Stalking is wasting .

Generally, people would easily get mesmerized when they saw "happy-ever-after" pictures of someone they know. Thus will also leads to jealousy and sometimes their heart would whisper "i have it better than you" then they'll also take a better picture of themselves rather than the person whom they saw on the "h-e-a" pictures.

Do you get it? I guess i'm not so good in conveying information in English, but i'm trying my best to make it in English! inshaa Allah :)

Nowadays i'm getting influenced in stalking others' profile. i'm getting interested to know their storyline. FRANKLY. And ohhh it makes me feels SO bad. Because i'm not being me. The more i know bout them, the more i'm trying to have things more than they already had. This means what? UNGRATEFUL. 

In Malay idioms, they call it 'Jaga tepi kain orang' . Ehh am i right? I guess the meaning is kinda similar. But i hate it. I want to stop it.

It is something good if we want to know a person in detail, in order to help her if she got any problem. But if they have uncertain vision on that, isn't it something wasteful? waste time, waste GB, and also waste brain energy to think of something which has no affair with us. Such a waste.

See how much 'waste' that i've typed there? The conclusion is: stalking is wasting. It's better for us to focus on ourselves rather others to ensure our own excellence. *in some cases* sometimes focusing on others is better, it shows how much we concern on our friends. But not too much till it brings contretemps to us :O *oops* 

Sorry for this so-amatured-english. Scratchscratch finished! c:

Sunday, June 3, 2012

Empat Jun 2012

Guess what? saya akan masuk ke CFS IIUM on this date. weewoo, saya makin dewasa! :d





ni ayat yang selalu diguna oleh cfs. adakah ini motto? ye kot, hihi.

ok sangatlah tak sabar nak jumpa kawan kawan sekolah rendah sekolah menengah tadika *ehh ak mne pnah msok tadika* oh yeah, memang tak sabar ^.^

ya Allah permudahkanlah urusanku di tempat yang baru aku jejaki ini. satu anak tangga ke menara gading..

fuhh gementar pon ade. tapi sikit la. bebanding dlu fes day masok kusess last year. macam hape je. neves tak tentu pasal. ok saya memang jenis yg senang gelabah. hahah :j

itu sahaja. teet. 

scratchscratch finished! im gonna miss to dance my finger here :')

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

The past keeps haunting.

while sitting solely without thinking of anything
in the sudden it came
the unforgettable moment of despair
when this brain can't be controlled properly
always hunting for world's entertainment
longing for friends' attention

how lucky the children who were raised 
with very proper and perfect teachings
they learnt to memorize the Holy Quran since 3 years old
they were taught to cover their aurah even when they're still crawling
their manners were always under control
to avoid them astray 
and also apart themselves from the wrongdoers

not meant to blame how my parents took care of me
they're very wonderful
helpful and always tell us to do good deeds
they never concerned of how much money and effort they gave
as long as all of us live happily and in normal condition..

while me
doing things that i shouldn't did
when i was in my primary and secondary school
things that Islam taught us not to
to crave for something unimportant
to be ungrateful of what i had
to befriend with those whom shouldn't be closed to
ignorance overwhelmed
how much black dots clung to this fragile heart
only Allah knows.

the past keeps haunting
even though it is unrepeatable
it'll never be eased easily from the hippocampus
cause it's permanent
and always reminds how fool we were
on the past. 

only one thing for sure
Allah is Forgiving
He will guide us 
as long as we repent
and never have desire to do the same mistakes
indeed, He is Caring
and never want us to seek bad things

may this feel of guilt and repentance last forever..
may Allah always light us with Hidayah
and make these tiny hearts aware of sinful deeds

aamiiin. ya rabbal a'lamiin.

make Allah سبحانه و تعالى as a vision
Prophet Muhammad صلى الله عليه وسلم as an exemplary
and Islam as the way of life.
inshaa Allah we'll find the safest path through afterlife.

scratch. finished.

Sunday, May 13, 2012

Manic monday? i dont think so :j

Imagine bout The Bangles Band ? hewhew, yep, they're the one who sang along the 'Manic Monday'. Today was weird to me. there are weird things happened to me. who wants to know? if u dont want, just click on the 'x' button up there. :j

Foremost, what is manic monday? what i know is, it relates to the common phenomenon that happens every weeks for everyone. basically, children who go to school will feel bored to think of tomorrow will be MONDAY. means school hour! also the people who works, they'll totally feel lame to think of the works that are non-stop even they already had break on the weekend. ala, biasa la tu.

BUT people who do works lillahi taala, inshaa Allah he or she will make everyday as great days to think that they will give services and benefits to others as they work sincerely :3

Enough talking bout that, actually i have an unusual feelings bout today, MONDAY, 14th may 2012.

Firstly, i fell asleep after subuh. *okay that's bad* while sleeping, i've dreamt bout i ate many muffins and candies. after finished eating lustfully, suddenly i remembered that today i am fasting *hoo noo* i was in utter regret. Then i heard my mom's voice, she was calling for me to get ready. i woke up, realizing that it was my mother's real voice. *glad that it's just a dream, blom batal lg pose* it's 9 a.m. Luckily, i had taken my bath before subuh, so i get up by only washing my face, then get ready all the important documents. we went to bank muamalat to open my acc for the inquiries of uia bantuan asasi. :>

No parking there in Rawang *hoo noo* so we went acah tak acah je park in forbidden area. unfortunately, after succeed getting the atm bankcard, we got to pay 'parking lot' for 100ringgits in the Majlis Perbandaran Selayang. asdfghjkl !

Mom felt so restless. me also. i felt guilty coz the incidence happened due to my business to open my bank acc. so i decided to use my money to pay for the fine. *ohh so sayang! duit gaji melayang!* but i insisted to do so. okay, tu duit dunia, bukan boleh bawa ke kubur, bayar jelah,, lagipun boleh jadi duit kebajikan utk rakyat jelata selayang -..- *my thought.

As mom already paid for the so-called-parking-fee , i feel relieved to hear that we only need to pay 50ringgits. *ouhhyeayhhh awesome!* thanks majlis perbandaran selayang for being very generous to us, hikhok! alhamdulillah......

When i think back and flashback, i realized one thing and learnt many things.

once bitten, twice shy

means, once we done a mistake and busted by others, we'll never have desire to do the same mistake again.

I also can think more maturely *cewahh* about rezeki comes from Allah and He is the one who can control all the flows of rezeki. Like what happened previously, we can't even determine that this might happen to us, i mean the 100ringgits payment at the so far place from our home. *jauh tuu selayang* This thing makes us realize that rezeki can be taken back by Allah in anytime. Specially when someone get robbed? sabo jelah sis. ^.^"

Okay, that's all. on my way to improve english! must exempt EPT until Level 6 so that can get 1 year only  for the foundation program at Centre For Foundation Studies in IIUM, inshaa Allah. yosh yosh chaiyok!

scratchscratch finished!

Thursday, May 10, 2012

Positive thinking.

This is my passion, why i feel less confident with it?

idk y, maybe because of the stories i've read that shows many architecture students languished of their life full of rejections and fatigue?

or, maybe their lack of free time by only doing assignments and project non-stop? 

or maybe because of this course which needs a large amount of money buying all those archie things?

or maybe. i'm really not sure whether i can stand to carry on this course for 8 semesters long...

bad thoughts, go away from me! >.<

 *slap!* get up! throw away all those thriveless  thinking!

why you need to be so scare to live your passion? nothing can make you happier if you take other than architects. you'll surely be jealous of aed students if you're in other course someday.

believe in yourself, u can do it. you can chase your own dream coz the dream is slower than you *maybe

do you remember.....

And We charge no soul except [with that within] its capacity, and with Us is a record which speaks with truth; and they will not be wronged.
(Al-Mukminun, 62)

take note.
i have this ability, which others rarely have. they have other abilities, but not this. 
this is a talent that i should use properly and correctly to give benefits to others. those people need your service even it's unofficially done and could not be seen by bare eyes. 

Surely there is ease after hardship. Aye, surely there is ease after hardship.
(Al-Inshiraah, 5-6)

So, anything happen, don't think too long. if you say it's difficult to take this course, it's normal. everything's not easy, life has it's rainbows and storms. the happiness gives bless and problems make it uniquer. nobody lives with no problems. so cheer up!

okay, i'm trying my best! inshaa Allah. i want to make my parents happy to have a successful daughter after 20++ years they raised me.

unik kan masjid ni. smart!

okay! no doubt. this is the only path that i really like. so i'll not kill my own passion only to live easy.

how about you outside there? are you ready to take the challenge to be an aed students? or other type of student? i am, inshaa Allah. may Allah bless our efforts.

scratchscratch finished!

Thursday, May 3, 2012

Hai korang. Semoga kita berjumpa.

I'm an ordinary afterschool student who has less pressure than any other teenager. because of what? because i have a very relaxing time and enjoy every moment while waiting for the upu result ^.^ (alhamdulillah). while waiting, i've done many things, so many that i myself can't describe it one by one. and one of the interesting moment is when i 'met' new friends in social sites (like other did :j).

is that phrases look like manglish ? oh well, just ignore it. i'm practicing. it's been a very long time. :D

Not to be weird of, when you see me looking at the laptop screen until 6hours++ a day. Why so long? because this flat modern technology gadget has so many information that i never knew before. developing our brain in a long break is necessary, to make sure it keeps thinking and working.

Enough of the nonsense things i've typed. what i'm gonna say here is about the distance relationship in cyber world. *woaaa,, clapclap* anyway, it's a common thing, am i right? yes it is. for me, it's a new thing as i just moved out from the hostel life since 5 months ago. i could add up my own friends  besides of my friends in previous schools; they are my cyber friends :)

Since this long break, i've learnt to not being choosy in befriending others. frankly, i was a ... er,, what to say? you know that kinda girl who always think too long before make others as her friend. *that was my past*. but now i'm learning to accept others no matter how kind or bad they are, how selfish or talkative they are, or how popular or ordinary they are. because everyone has their own talent also weakness *including me*

To you, you, and you ! (facebook, twitter, and blogger friends) thank you very much that you guys have kindness to be my friend. hope that we have chance to meet in reality *if Allah wills* and if not here in this world, pray that we can meet there, in His Jannah. May this relationship enriches our friendship value and also gives benefits to each of us. 

I don't want to list down all the names here, this is just so you know. *siapa makan cili, dia yang terasa pedasnya* hikhik,, yeah, it's true. no need to mention here if your names are already in my brain hippocampus . InsyaAllah, it'll remain there unless i got Alzheimer? *nauzubillah*

Dear you who read this,

You must been wondered what type of girl i am, right? don't think too much, because i'm just an ordinary muslimah, i'm not as kind as an ustazah, neither as bad as a witch. i'm just plain me, a girl who always need tarbiyah in her everyday life so she could avoid world defamation, as much as she could. i need you to bring me to the Truth, leading me to Allah's pleasure. moreover, this is the real responsible for us, which is to remind for goodness and advice from the wrongdoings. 
most importantly, never assume much unless we meet :)

that's all. sayang korang kerana Allah s.w.t. :j

scratchscratch finished! assalam :)

Sunday, April 29, 2012

Graduation Day 2012 !

That saturday, 28th April 2012 a.k.a bersih 3.0 day. That was a really awesome day i've ever had for this month. and also the last day of our gathering together. i love my own batch, 0711 KUSESS. will never forget all of you :')

when i went to the school, i had opportunity of meeting my juniors, exdormmates and also lovely dovely teachers :3. mostly my friends ! i met kak jah n syera razak, the friend that i missed the most! and also other friends, we laughed, we hugged and play together. can't forget how happy they we're. :D when i had chance to shake hands and hug my teachers, felt so happy and relief! mostly when i'm with bonda hajah rosminah,, i felt truly sad and wanna cry. she had been 3 years being my principle since i was form 1 in SMESH. ohh bonda, thanx soo much!

Fyi, those who got straight A's for spm, they got banner of their faces (can be brought home) and hundreds of ringgits. untunglaa. ahaa, i missed that only one A, but its ok. a lil bit sad there but maybe Allah got something better for me next time? insyaAllah ^.^ i'm very grateful anyway .

mama, kaksu, me
my left: syera razak, my right: mamat kecoh, at front: nishalynda n ika lan,  behind: nashreen n zur

we are!

happy graduated  faces :)
me, shuu, famira, ayong and shuu's mom

after finished packing back, i met as much as i could, all the friends and say farewell to them. they'll be someone someday, so i pray that they'll be successful in their future. as i was in the car, otw to home, felt very sad, to think that this would be the last time we gather in this number. that kind of aura, when we shouted kusess cheer together for bonda when she was taking the anugerah mantan pengetua, that was the most precious one! idk how to express, but its awesome! hee.

ok, im really in rush, that's y my english hav many broken and also the words are not tidily arranged. all i can say is, good luck my friends ! we hav a long journey after this, may Allah bless :)

*today is amin azmi's birthday. take note guys! :)*

scratchscratch finished! c:

Saturday, April 28, 2012

KinderGarden !

assalamualaikum u alls!

i just finished my graduation day in Kuala Selangor Science Secondary School a.k.a. KUSESS. A bright day, alhamdulillah, yet also the sad one. But i ain't talking about this graduation day, that post i'll separate from this one, which is : Children Ribena Days ! haha.

See, how cute they are! These two are kanak kanak ribena. danish n fathia. but fathia was not one of the kindergaden kids. so she went to here seldomly.
By the way, i want to say that i just retired from this awesome job. some will like to be like me, which is to take care of these cute children. but they dont have mind on how tough this work is; to mop up the children's vomiting wastes, clean up the smelly butt and also avoid them form quarreling with each other. =_=" but sometimes it's a very pleasure one to see their cute faces :3

It's been 2 months. the first day was a worst one because these kids liked to make a "mental tests" on every teacher that was newly involved in this place. so, they do things like climbing the gates, didn't listen to my advice and so on. Felt annoyed and disrespected also. I made up my mind to be patient and tried my best to husnuzon :') .

The last week of my working days was accompanied by kak fatin. She had experienced on taking care of these children since last year. so i felt very happy and easier when we worked together. moreover, she was a havoc and sporting one! weewoo kak fatin! thanx ^.^

And now, i'm gonna spend my time on doing the undone things that should be done 3 months ago. need to improve my skills on english and sketching! haha, semangat kan. bese la tu jannah -.-". okay, all the best for our next chapter of life. jihad fi sabilillah! insyaAllah :)

blurr ke posing tuh -.-"

tgok tu, kemain lg pngaruh 1malaysia. tssk.

comei je tgok "adik n alquran" si nana ni :3
*today is bersih 3.0 day and dino's buffdey. take note*

scratchscratch finished! alhamdulillah c:

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

A sudden seen vid

this is a really touching video. it makes the tears flow heavily. how sweet and romantic a person like 'him'. pray that this type of man would be our husband-to-be dear muslimah :')

Sunday, April 22, 2012

facebook deactivated. so what.

This is to explain what situation i have now. this is to give clear reasons why i choose to do such thing.

What so big thing bout this deactivate whatsoever? not a big thing thou. some will say "yess! she's gone from here!" some will cry coz they cant stalk the profile anymore (ehh adeke.perasan je), either they wont realize anything bout what i've done lately (this group of people r many).

Then when i say : "guys i deactivated it last night", they were like "whatt??how dare youu??" bhaahaa. over pulak.

So this is the reason for the questions TELL ME WHY :

- that facebook, it is wasting my time. 
- i always used it.
- i overused it.
- so i deleted it.
- to not use it.

That's it. my time sure has gone easily when i opened it each time. now i have only one month as a preparation to a university. my only time to decide my future. my only time to enjoy with family. when i opened the tablet just to sign into fb acc, i just lose my time to improve my english, know about world issues and also having a blithesome moments with my family. i'm like frog under vase! :0

there are much more things to do other than using fb. other useful and beneficial sites. yes, fb has many goodness, but the badness is more than goodness. maybe other will say "gune je lah cam bese, asal kau guna secara sederhana". blablabla. i've tried it but no use. it's still not working, so i made my own decision to "kill" it.

BUT actually i miss it. i miss my cyber friends there, i miss the young_ARCHITECT group, i miss to see those doodle dakwah thingy. :'(

its ok, nothing matter much. insyaAllah, i'll reactivate it back one month later. maybe a week later? hew hew hew hew hew.

scratchscratch finished! c:

Thursday, April 12, 2012

Don't Look !

Greetings and good night i wish to all bloggers and stalkers. tonight, i have a not-so-cool topic which is...


What the heww with that?
Let's see a story from a girl named Jane. (not me)
I was walking with joy one day, that time I was a sale assistance in Cosway Bandar Tasik Puteri. I went to a tavern (drinking shop) to buy a tiramisu bubble tea (yummy yummy!) . Few steps before the feet reach the tavern, i was greeted by a man's voice. As i turned back, i saw two young men, riding on their motorbike and each of them wearing kopiah. They're young, and seemed that they just finished their activity in the Musolla. I was like "Wow! so calm to see them. Do they have Nur on their faces?" They're looking at me and one of them was smiling. I just realized that i blocked their pass-way. So that time i was TOTALLY GET RED IN THE FACE for that few seconds moment. Slap on my face for being in chimera while walking. -.-"

This is how weak a woman or a girl is. Including me. It was really hard for me to lower my gaze, as I was not used to. But i must. Everyone must. It's difficult for the newbie, but we must always try as much as we can, aren't we? I really uneasy with this title, but at least this would be one of my reminder. insyaAllah. 

It was narrated that Jarir ibn `Abdullah said: “I asked the Messenger of Allah (peace and blessings be upon him) about an accidental glance, and he commanded me to avert my gaze.” (Muslim) Imam An-Nawawi said: "What is meant by an “accidental glance” is when a person’s glance unintentionally falls upon a non-mahram woman. There is no sin on him for the first glance, but he must avert his gaze immediately. If he averts his gaze immediately there is no sin on him, but if he continues looking, then he will be a sinner, because of this hadith, for the Prophet (peace and blessings be upon him) commanded him to avert his gaze, and Allah says: “Tell the believing men to lower their gaze (from looking at forbidden things), and protect their private parts (from illegal sexual acts)” 
(An-Nur: 30)

Lower our gaze is better than looking at the handsome, cute, charming guys. Yeah, true that. But nature of world which people like to see at the beautiful things or human is inevitable. So, depends on each of us whether to proceed our previous lifestyle or to change for ALLAH. I may do this or may not, I'm hoping for a change coz i already have many sins to be reduced. Only He knows. Wallahu'alam. 

O self. please change for Allah, Rasulullah s.a.w., and your husband-to-be. 

Thursday, March 29, 2012

Excited To Start A New Chapter

Actually, i'm nervous. Everyone's maybe nervous. For those who are called batch '94. This is the stage where we must wait patiently to pursue our study on 27TH MARCH 2012. pheww~ i mean, for the foundation-to-be students. I really hope that i got chance to study at IIUM. That's my dream campus. Has real Islamic lifestyle, insyaAllah. I couldnt take it if i'm suddenly threw to other far away campus like UMS or  UNIMAS. I want to be near with my family, safe and soundly.

BUT, anything could happen. I felt like my mind is really unconscious. Over-thinking. I've ever heard someone said that, if we think too much, it'll cause harm to ourselves. Because of ? LONG CHIMERA. As mentioned in the hadith :

Al-Hasan al-Bashri berkata: Barang siapa ingin melebihkan dunia daripada akhirat, maka Allah akan berikan seksa kepadanya enam seksaan. Tiga di antaranya di dunia dan tiga lainnya pada akhirat :
# Adapun tiga di dunia ialah angan-angan yang tiada kesudahan, keinginan yang tiada batasnya dan hilangnya kemanisan ibadat. 
# Ada pun yang di akhirat ialah kebingungan yang hebat pada hari kiamat, hisab yang hebat dan kesedihan yang berpanjangan.

Chimera = angan-angan.

So, as an advice for myself, anyone who read this or anyone who never visit this link before, i hope we could help ourselves by shorten our chimeras. I'm maybe over-thinking, but I never knew how much daydreams I had before. Btw, i would like to present any of us which never see this pic :

The interpretation :

Kemudian baginda s.a.w. bersabda: "Garisan tengah ini adalah manusia, dan garisan empat segi ini adalah ajal mautnya yang manusia tidak dapat lari darinya. Garisan yang terkeluar dari kotak itu adalah angan-angan manusia yang lebih panjang dari kehidupannya. Garis-garis kecil di dalam kotak itu ialah kejadian dan ranjau-ranjau kehidupannya. Jika ia terlepas dari satu kejadian, maka kejadian yang lain pula akan memerangkapnya. Dan begitulah seterusnya." (Hadith Riwayat Bukhari).

Everytime my daydream started, this picture automatically existed in my mind. Feels lil' bit shivering. :| nauzubillah. Let us quit and reduce chimera, should us ? clap chest, ask appetite.

scratchscratch finished. 

Sunday, March 18, 2012

It reminds someone to someone

Many things could be made up to make people has strong memory of our existence in their life. One of the things is nickname. Yeah, this thing really gives great impact on someone who is called caliphs, slave, and dai'e. Moreover, if he or she is called ‘honey’ or ‘darling’ or ‘cayunkzz’ or something relates those things, it'll permanently remembered. Such a waste if it’s used for someone whom is not meant to be our life partner, not the one who is written with our name in the Luh Mahfouz, isn’t it ? Sorry for those who could feel the chilli or pepper or jalapenos sensation in this blog, for sure, you’ll regret it. So stop before it’s too late (reminder for me too :j) -ohh menyampah nye, direct gitu pulak dia . harharr :3

adapted from a comic

Sometimes, nickname could measure our relationship and social with other person. For example, I’m called ‘Jannah’ everywhere I am (except home). That’s my official nickname. But when someone calls me ‘jann’I don’t know why, but the truth is : I felt safe by the person’s side and it’s like 100 years ago I’ve known her/him even though I just knew her/him for few days. How magnificent, incredible, marvelous,  right ? (subhanallah c:) but it depends on situation also; if someone like nak menggedik aku x rase papepon. Khee~ :B


What's that ? This word never existed in dictionary nor encyclopedia. But nowadays, my friends in the internet (cyber friends la katakan. hihi) often call me by that name. First thing that comes into my mind, is this name benefit me ? I don’t know, but I’m sure it’s not wrong as long as there's no bad meanings behind that name. This name makes me closer to my cyber friends. :D 
For sure, jannah is the best name my mother had given. Subhanallah c:

Why I'm talking about myself ? Supposedly the readers must be priority , right ? haha, tahpape la. Ok stop. Importantly, we must be careful of what name we're giving to our mates or friends. As written in the Holy Quran,

Dan janganlah setengah kamu menyatakan keaiban setengahnya yang lain; dan janganlah pula kamu panggil-memanggil antara satu dengan yang lain dengan gelaran yang buruk. (Larangan-larangan tersebut menyebabkan orang yang melakukannya menjadi fasik, maka) amatlah buruknya sebutan nama fasik (kepada seseorang) sesudah dia beriman. Dan (ingatlah), sesiapa yang tidak bertaubat (daripada perbuatan fasiknya) maka merekalah orang-orang yang zalim.” 
[Maksud surah al-Hujurat, ayat 11]

This thing looks simple, but did we ever mention ?

“ Dan barangsiapa yang melakukan kebaikan walau sebesar zarah, maka tetap akan dihitung, dan barangsiapa yang melakukan kejahatan walau sebesar zarah, maka tetap akan dihitung”
(Surah Al-Zalzalah ayat 7-8)

My hands kinda shaking to copypaste this piece of surah because I'm one of the person which sometimes did 'lagha' things. nauzubillah. I'm like other person, but I'm trying my best to change myself, with hope that others did too. We'r one ummah, right guys ? :)

scratchscratch finished ! 

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

Friendship : what's the value ?

These fingers are too heavy to play with the keyboards for now ? maybe, bcoz it's been few days since I didn't think of updating this blog. I don't want to ask "who care?" or "don't u miss me?" haha. that's just a piece of rubbish (ehh?) haha, kidding. don't take it seriously ladies n gentlemen. :j

The seconds I've thinking of friendship. I could see different sides of friendship way, whether in facebook with the status or posts, in television with the drama titled BFF or kejarkejar pelangi, in pmg, and other media. Yes, we could see friendship anywhere coz it's a common title in our life. So why did I mention it now, not previous year, 10 years ago nor before I was bornt in this world ?? coz I just realized it, this year and need to tell you something super-important! (ceuuuaahhh takbole blah.)

Ever read this surah ? so read it now.

"....dan sahabat-sahabat(karib di dunia dahulu) pada hari itu(hari akhirat) saling bermusuhan antara satu sama lain melainkan orang-orang yang bertaqwa." (Az-Zukhruf: 67)

Could anyone see through this holy words like a telescope ? To know what's Allah Azza wa Jalla really wants us to know.. It's not that easy. If someone could really collaborate it, he/she would be taking it seriously by exploring the real meaning of the words, relate it with the idea for today's friendship issue and utilize it in their own way (by spreading his/her discovery about it) . okay, I didn't even know how to convey it -.-'' .

Friendship is not about we must always connect with our besties everyday by using fb nor handset.
It's about connecting them in our pray, pray for their goodness.

Friendship is also not about getting fun experiences with them at Genting, Sunway Lagoon, Midvalley or what.
It's about reminding them about the mistakes that could lead them to destruction.

Friendship is not about saving ourselves from poor life, boredness nor sadness.
It's about bringing our friends to the ad-Din (the right way of life) which would lead us together to His heaven.

I like this hadith. how bout u ?

“Setiap hamba muslim yang mendoakan saudaranya tanpa pengetahuannya pasti akan didoakan malaikat dengan berkata: Engkau juga akan mendapat seumpamanya”
(HR Muslim)

Subhanallah. How wonderful ukhuwwah if it's built that way. Hope all of us know what's the real friendship value. 

Scratchscratch finished. c:

Sunday, March 4, 2012

An awesome program :)

From the last Friday until yesterday, i've attended a program which is called "Perkampungan Menara Gading". It was held in German-Malaysian Institute, Bangi. Alhamdulillah, Allah gave me the most precious moment while I'm waiting for the SPM result another 13 days! (ohhmaii -.-) . I didn't expect this this activity would be this awesome. Glad that we had many superb tutors and fabulous participants. Yet they're too cool to me. oh yeah. jazakhallah khairan kasiran kakjah n haziqah for joining this program together as our part of friendship memoir. :)

The facilitators there are really entertaining + full of dedications. There were some brothers  and sisters which were unforgettable such as Sis Syaza, Sis Shima, Sis Amal, Bro Umar, Bro syeikh, Bro K, also my own great tutor, Bro Wan. (kembang dh dia :j) . I met some awesome friends too . they're many but frankly I tell ya, I would never forget all of you. UPSI group member: Syeira, Syahira, Raihan, Azira, Amira, Aqila, Asyraf n Amiroul. You guys are really helpful, friendly and had made up a nice group cooperation. And the hamper as our victory..... mesti korang dah bantai habes kan? hakhakhak, salah saya gak sebab awal sangat balik. lagi2 takdapat begambar ngan korang. Sangat sedih. So sorry guys. My mum had waited me for 2hours outside the hall. So, that time, guilty really overwhelmed me. :'(

This program motivates me well. I like the Caca-Ca (Cakapcakap campus)-ade kak dila n kak ayu yg sangat comel!, Explorace, LDK, and the best one is "Menyelusuri Suatu Pencarian". The lecturer(tak ingat nama -.-) told us about the uniqueness of life from different perspective of world which people rarely realize. For example, Mark Zuckerberg (ahh. dia lagi?) He's major in psychology and he used it for others to release their psychology by creating Facebook. Who knows how? Only excellent thinkers would know :j.  Life is not about "I wanna be an architect, and I WILL be an architect". It is about "I wanna achieve excellence whether to be an architect or psychologist or other career that Allah will give which is better than what what I think, then it'll give benefits to others". Again, the most important one is usaha, doa and tawakkal. (that's a common words but have high value!) Always remember, that we must become a value creator, not a person who used to be in a 'pandemic life'.

Along this PMG too, I could feel the warm Islamic condition. Alhamdulillah. Everyone were really kind and although I could see some arrogant face at last I discovered that they had decent hearts. ( I told ya, husnuzon really takes part in a situation like this). blublublub ! (ehh what the peanut -.-)

I also didn't expect that I would give a talk in the "Sidang Pleno".  Like a tah ape2 je aku cakap masa tu =_=. But also feel a lil' bit relief to fight back what the famous boy said about languanges in studying. (ehh ngumpat ke tu?) lantak :j

Owh no! There're still many things to be shared and scratched here as a part of memoir. But it's too long. it's ok , it's alrite (ehh mcm kenal ayat ni :j) kan kan kan. haha.

I was exposed about PEPIAS. This organisation really caught my interest. And when Bro Wan talked about it, I was like " wahh wahh! " (eh melebih pulak) . InsyaAllah. One day I would like to join a jemaah like this when I've stepped into a menara gading :)

Lastly, this song had give me a deep conversation to myself. let's hear some..

ok that's all for now. scratchscratch finished! :)

Monday, February 27, 2012

When the fingers are dancing.

For now, I randomly typing my posts. Maybe lack of ideas? hm.. maybe not because ideas always came and I think there's too much I need to know and tell anybody whom never knew it before. I could say that this post is randomly written because it makes my fingers dancing ! (ehh what is that anyway?) I'm thinking of using Arabic, but I'm lack of its basics. Maybe after I've learnt it in my further studies? (InsyaAllah..) c:

If you lose your way
Believe in a better day
Trials will come
But surely they will fade away
If you just believe
What is plain to see
Just open your heart
And let His love flow through

That's just some verse from Irfan Makki's feat Maher Zain in their song, "I Believe". May Allah bless them for making such songs that remind us to stay positive with our own religion.

One thing that I've learnt for this month. Never complain on anything we got. For example, WORK (ok, I've started to give a BananaSmile :j) Truthfully, I felt a little bit stressed by it, and barely 'lost my way'. Because of what ? For almost everyday, I always make mistakes and be blamed by it. Also didn't make sense when you're blamed for something which is not your fault. Normal things. I can't do works perfectly in a conventional situation like that. But seriously, I can't use that as a reason. Because,

Allah does not charge a soul except [with that within] its capacity. It will have [the consequence of] what [good] it has gained, and it will bear [the consequence of] what [evil] it has earned. "Our Lord, do not impose blame upon us if we have forgotten or erred. Our Lord, and lay not upon us a burden like that which You laid upon those before us. Our Lord, and burden us not with that which we have no ability to bear. And pardon us; and forgive us; and have mercy upon us. You are our protector, so give us victory over the disbelieving people."
(Al-Baqarah: 286)

In fact, that's just another test from Him. Sense of guilt overwhelmed me. Accidently, I've clicked to another link of blog owned by one of my cyber friend and noted one of his writing about being grateful

Sebelum kita mengeluh tentang pekerjaan..
Fikirkan tentang orang yang cacat dan tidak mampu bekerja..

Thank you so much friend, I could feel the hot chilli sensation! (hehe just kidding :j) That two row of words make me realize from the top of my head to the bottom of my legs.. (what is this -.-)

Sorry fingers, you can't dance as long as you want right now. So. That's all.

Scratchscratch finished ! Alhamdulillah. c:


Just hear it. you won't regret. But makesure you're alone. so you could feel that really warm feeling. c:

Sunday, February 12, 2012

Not Wrong.

"You haven't get your spm result yet but already thinking of marriage??"

Some person would have said those things nowadays because they think it is too early to talk about marriage. I'm not saying that they're wrong, the thing is, everyone have their own rights to think about their future. maybe some will say, "You can't wait to have a marriage, aren't you?" HAHA. think positive guys.

think think think.

Nikah Khitbah. I knew that everybody already knew about this, which a man and a woman get married early (usually when they're still studying) and live separately for a while. For me, this type of marriage is better because you don't need to worry about adultery (zina). You could feel free to go for a date with your own spouse. How sweet huh ..(ehh?) anyway, this is rarely happen, because nowadays teenagers don't even care if they're socially mixed with member of opposite gender (okay what is that... -.-)

That's just one of the example!

Back to the real topic, did you have your own vision of your future? who'll be your life partner? where'll you live? what will you do with your life? okay, I'll tell you my own vision. if you don't want to know, just ignore the orange-coloured text. haha.

I could see that I am there in my big house, in my own village. There are many types of animals such as cows, chickens, and sheeps in my own mini zoo at the backyard. I live with my mother and father even after my marriage. I work as a successful architect. I have a husband who is titled as an Ustaz (woots!). I always need him to give me guidances about my own religion. Besides of  working hard in my own carrier, I would never  being neglectful about my children because I want them to become soleh and solehin.

InsyaAllah. I really hope that the things that I've dreamt for to become reality even if it's not 100% same as I wished. Besides, Allah knows the best for all of us.

You could say that the vision is our dream, yeah. the dream would become true if we think optimistically by giving effort on it together with do'a. most importantly, we must put the vision sincerely, which is to be blissed and to be pleased by Allah s.w.t. 

It's better to have a vision/dream, rather than nothing to think about our future. At least we've marked a 'place' before we reach it. Imagine how pathetic if we don't have any checkpoint to be reached!

Whatever happens, make your own dream and believe it!

Owh and then.... do you noticed that I just using fully English in this post.... for the first time? kekekekek. well I always wanted to improve my English in school by speaking English with friends, but seems that now I have no friends to talk with in home. although it's kinda broken, at least I'm trying right? haha! forget it.

scratchscratch, finished! do have your own thoughts :)

Thursday, February 9, 2012

Bila masa cemburu...

Kenapa sekarang kita suka sangat cemburu kat orang lain ? padahal kita dah ada segala yang kita perlukan yakni mata untuk melihat, telinga untuk dengar, mulut untuk bercakap. kalau kita kuat cemburu, tandanya tidak bersyukur atas nikmat yang Allah telah berikan. tengok orang lain lebih sikit, dah merengek. nauzubillah. jauhilah sebab sesungguhnya cemburu itu kanser kepada hati mati. (ehh betul ke...)

Kadang cemburu boleh bawa ke arah (+) kalau kita pandai kawal. ya, semua benda yang kita buat kena penuh dengan wasatiyyah (average amount) so that semua yang kita buat berada dalam keseimbangan, insyaAllah.

Buat masa sekarang ni kita tengah cuti panjang kan. so tak kesa la kalau masa ni kita banyak cemburu kat orang lain. ada yang jeles sebab kawan pegi PLKN , kawan kerja pastu dapat duit gaji (memang aku cemburu), kawan pegi melancong luar negara, nampak kawan2 lain buat reunion kat luar secara kecik2, dll..!! banyaknyelah kau nak cemburu. haha.

Persoalan : buat ape nak cemburu ??

Kita kena tau di sebalik kelebihan yang orang lain ada, kita pun ada kelebihan tapi tak sama ngan depa. mungkin masa tu kita dapat tau kawankawan semua dah amik kerja sambilan, pada masa yang sama kita ada banyak masa lapang kat rumah. jadi, fikirlah.....apa yang kita dapat buat kat rumah? sepatutnya dimanfaatkan sepenuhnya macam ni :

belajar memasak
tolong mak/ayah dengan kerja derang
cari minat baru (bikin garden depan rumah/buat video yang tahpape tapi bemanfaat/crocheting)
tambah ilmu dalam otak (agama, astronomi, mistik pon bole -.-)
tingkatkan ibadah
cari identiti diri (???)
dan lainlain.....

so, BUNUH cemburu anda sebelum ia MEMBUNUH anda. kita tak tahu apa ganjaran yang Allah bakal anugerah di akhirat kelak atas setiap yang kita buat. tak kisah la kalau kita rasa tolong mak kat rumah tu perkara kecik, mana tau bagi Allah tu perkara yang besar lagi mulia ?

sedarlah dari mimpimimpimu. (apeakucakapni.)

Rasulullah s.a.w bersabda, maksudnya: “Makanan untuk seorang mencukupi untuk dua orang dan makanan untuk dua orang mencukupi untuk empat orang dan makanan untuk empat orang mencukupi untuk lapan orang.”
Riwayat Bukhari dan Muslim
 εїз Setiap Muslim hendaklah mempunyai sifat qanaah iaitu redha dan menerima apa yang ada tanpa banyak menuntut perkara yang bukan keperluannya.
 εїз Lawan bagi sifat qanaah ialah tamak yang menjadikan seseorang itu sentiasa cemburu dan dengki dengan rezeki yang diperolehi oleh orang lain.
 εїз Kekayaan yang sejati adalah kekayaan iman yang tercermin dari kesederhanaan hidupnya dan kesederhanaan itu tercermin dari sifatnya yang qanaah.
 εїз Salah satu cara untuk menanamkan sifat qanaah kepada diri dan keluarga ialah dengan sentiasa mengucapkan “alhamdulillah” di atas setiap perbuatan atau perkara baik yang diterima.
 εїз Rezeki adalah ketentuan Allah S.W.T. Untuk menambah keberkatannya hendaklah membiasakan diri dengan sifat pemurah dan tidak bakhil untuk bersedekah kepada orang lain kerana hal ini akan memberikan ketenangan kepada diri malah akan lebih disayangi oleh masyarakat kerana sesungguhnya, harta yang kita miliki terdapat hak-hak orang lain di dalamnya yang wajib kita tunaikan.

ketahuilah kita semua.....
Berkata Ibnul Qayyim al-Jauziyah, “Allah SWT cemburu terhadap hati hamba-Nya yang mengabaikan cinta, harap dan takut kepada-Nya, dan ada sesuatu yang lain di hatinya selain Dia.”

Kekasih Agung lebih mencemburui. pernahkah kita balas cintaNya ? ..........

coretcoret habis. selamat fikir. sekian.