Sunday, December 16, 2018

There I Was Again Tonight

Know what? It's 'Winter' in Malaysia, and everyday is raining '''''''''''';''''''''''''

Can't believe it's almost the end of 2018. I still remember the first time I was in the peak of my hobby as a blogger, after spm which was 2011. After 7 years and here I am, posting for only once to twice for a year. haha!

And it's good that lately, I watched some movies that motivates me to start writing again. Tenggelamnya Kapal Van Der Wijk, Gatsby, The Guernsey Literary & Potato Peel Pie Society, How to Get Over A Breakup. Those are the movies that I chose randomly except the third one. All are highlighting one point; WRITE! Coincidentally...or a sign? Wallahualam. And I hope, these are good signs for me to continue my university journey next year. Or years to come, Inshaa Allah. :3

Being in an existential crisis phase somehow drawn my energy when actually this young physical body should be utilized effectively and this is the best time to search my true potential. Feeling useless all the time aint good tho. It hurts so much to not knowing the things that we really good at; in order to use it for benefiting people around us. And it feels dead inside to just doing the same routine daily only to survive and not achieving something exceptional; at least for our own satisfaction.

I hope someday I could do something that could make me feel reallyyyy happy and worth of living. Even if it costs nothing in return but genuine happiness :')

Well, for the sake of 'Count My Blessings', I should congratulate myself for landing a comfort job; so far. 2 years of living as a working adult sure had taught me on being patient for the Rizq Allah had bestowed upon each of His creations, according to His Time. I used to had such a messy life in 2017, and things get better day by day, Alhamdulillah Ala Kulli Hal. Thought it feels like the progress for this year was kinda slow, I am still moving forward for sure. There are plannings for next year that makes my anxiety level uprising hahaha but dear, I need to control it and continuously making myself as 'busy' as i could. No overthinking jannah, keep cool okay! Yosh.

My english is tungganglanggang but who cares, it feels so good to write in English sebab kalau in malay kadang tak reti nak express those subtle points hahah so khalassssss. Monday had arrived! :8

Monday, November 12, 2018

Enchanted - Taylor Swift

There I was again tonight forcing laughter, faking smiles
Same old tired, lonely place
Walls of insincerity
Shifting eyes and vacancy vanished when I saw your face
All I can say is it was enchanting to meet you
Your eyes whispered "have we met?"
Across the room your silhouette starts to make it's way to me
The playful conversation starts
Counter all your quick remarks, like passing notes in secrecy
And it was enchanting to meet you
All I can say is I was enchanted to meet you
This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonder struck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you
The lingering question kept me up
Two a.m., who do you love?
I wonder till I'm wide awake
Now I'm pacing back and forth, wishing you were at my door
I'd open up and you would say, hey
It was enchanting to meet you
All I know is I was, enchanted to meet you
This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonder struck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
This night is flawless, don't you let it go
I'm wonder struck, dancing around all alone
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you
This is me praying that this was the very first page
Not where the story line ends
My thoughts will echo your name, until I see you again
These are the words I held back, as I was leaving too soon
I was enchanted to meet you
Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you
Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you
This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonder struck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
This night is flawless, don't you let it go
I'm wonder struck, dancing around all alone
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you
Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you. 

Tuesday, June 19, 2018

Go to the place where i belong to

I'm getting tired. Of living like this.
Deep in my heart, I really want to live my life back to basic.
Living in a village, belajar buat kuih tradisional, masakan tradisional.
Hidup macam zaman Opah dulu.
No socmed, no smartphone.
Live basic.
Belajar balik ilmu akidah, tasawuf, bertalaqqi Al-quran tiap hari.
Indahnya.

Can we turn back time?
No.
But we still have time,
to change. To have what we want. Really want in our life.

May Allah always guide us towards His Love & Love towards our Prophet Muhammad S.a.w.
May He strengthen our iman, always.