Tuesday, November 21, 2017

Undescribable

Right now.
In the middle of Kuala Lumpur busy hometown.
Living all by myself.
I'm neither in Comfort nor discomfort zone.
It's in between something
that me myself can't describe.

Living life by just following the flow. Yet still try to discover the miracles in between those flows.

Just wishing that I'm not losing myself and living the real life that I've always wanted
and have the chance to give back to my parents
for all the times they've spent to make me a
significantly, me.


Tuesday, August 22, 2017

Why All of These Happening to me?

Yes. Whenever I felt down, feel hopeless, felt hurt by the worldly events, this sentence somehow popped out from nowhere.

Lately it happened.

My lifestyle seems differ from people around me. Different from my own family.
I often ask; why I am different? Why can't I be normal and ease my thinking as similar as the other people around me? Why can't I pursue architecture in a way, not too much struggle? Even I've struggled till death, the result still below the standard. "Look, your own friend almost ready to pursue her master, and you're still nowhere to be found and looking for your permanent job", curse you negative thought.

This is not to brag. This is curiousness which always strike me since I was a child. Since in Primary school. It could be some kindof blessing, at the same time; disaster.

Tried myself to figure out whichever stream fits my own personality. But it seems to hurt my loved ones. It's  either I live the life I didn't enjoy & satisfy people's expectation towards me... or live the life I've ever dreamt of & let go of their hopes towards me.

It's very. Complicated.

Yet it's not good to blame the destiny.
Asking "Why All of These Happening To Me" is something looks like, ungrateful.

Guess that I'll just follow the flow. Keep on moving. Do the best that I could & let Him decide for me. Not to think too much. "Anyway, architecture had taught you of many different perspective of life, met you up with many great personalities aite? I believe many more hikmah you can derive from this field inshaa Allah," said positive thought.

You can do this. Just do it.

Sincerely,
A girl who always need self assurance & positive words.

Friday, June 23, 2017

Fav Song

Raya mood is coming... It's such an enjoyment to have 5 days holiday after months of working 6 days per week pheww. Get prepare with a new feeling of raya days guys.

By the way,

This is just another good song that I'd love to hear everyday. It suits my personality tho! And I'd like to share this song to my friends out there, just to tell how good the lyrics are. Enjoice !



Is your favorite color blue?
Do you always tell the truth?
Do you believe in outer-space?
Now I'm learning you

Is your skin as tanned as mine?
Does your hair flow sideways?
Did someone take a portion of your heart?
Now I'm learning you

And if you don't mind
Can you tell me
All your hopes and fears
And everything that you believe in
Would you make a difference in the world
I'd love for you to take me to a deeper conversation
Only you can make me

I've let my guard down for you
And in time you will too

And if you don't mind
Can you tell me
All your hopes and fears
And everything that you believe in
Would you make a difference in the world
I'd love for you to take me to a deeper conversation
Only you can make me
[x2]

Deeper conversation with me