Saturday, December 29, 2012

A poem from a stranger :')

The final exam gonna start tomorrow. some will get excited to finish the second sem, some will feel like butterflies in their stomachs. as for me, i think i'm feeling the latter one. Suddenly i feels like wanna share this poem with all of you. it's kinda give me inspiration. thanks to a stranger who i've met virtually via . unfortunately i've forgotten his name. ahaks. but he's from Pakistan. :j

here comes the words of wisdom!

Stranger: When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest, if you must, but don't you quit.

Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about,
When he might have won had he stuck it out;
Don't give up though the pace seems slow--
You may succeed with another blow.

Often the goal is nearer than,
It seems to a faint and faltering man,
Often the struggler has given up,
When he might have captured the victor's cup,
And he learned too late when the night slipped down,
How close he was to the golden crown.

Success is failure turned inside out--
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far,
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit--
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.

do you understand the whole poem? i didnt really fathom it. :B but its meaningful for students like us. :)

Friday, December 21, 2012

Ring Ding Dong? hee.

assalam n good night. 

In accordance to yesterday's tragic moment, you know what. 21st december 2012 is just an epic fail and it is totally busted! such a disgrace for those whom really believe in it. we can be assured that Judgment Day will be at anytime, BUT not certain time because it's only Allah s.w.t who knows when it will happen. wallahualam.

in sudden, i got a not-so-brilliant idea to make as a topic. what? it is RING. an engagement ring? sort of kinda. haha unfortunately i never received any ring from anyone. oh well, i think it's not the time. to chill my heart, i managed to buy a ring. i bought it with my beloved friend, Syazwani :) 

Following trend? nahhh.

frankly, i was jealous when i saw other girls wearing those magnificent types of rings. i thought it must be from their friends, families or either boyfrengg? awwwsch so shweet. haha kidding. no offence, but i kinda feel it's absurd if the ring is from a boyfriend. short-minded? haa u can assume me that.

from my point of view, wearing a ring is not because i'm bajeting that i've taken by a guy. by this time, i'm trying to remind myself by wearing it. with this, i can recall myself for not having special feelings with other men, even it's a little infatuation. i have no one to be 'marked' as my husband-to-be, but i'm sure that i'll have one *in shaa Allah*. this ring is just to guide my feelings, that i'm a muslimah. and a muslimah, should not... make any adultery act, including heart adultery (zina hati). hmm with that words i've hit a nail on my head! :p

even though this ring cost less than 10hinggit, i just hope that it would be useful as what i've mentioned.

okey that's enough for explanation. i also heard that wearing ring is our Prophet's sunnah. So apa lagi. :D


Friday, December 14, 2012

Yes. i just need to wait

So powerful is this memory,
Keeping you so close to me,
My heart flees to you in a hurry,
Struggling I am to keep it steady.

He's not mine! He's  not mine!
What is he doing in my mind?
I shall not cross that Divine line,
I'll stand waiting, tortured by time.

O Allah, my heart is aching!
Pounding on the bars it's kept in,
The leash is nothing but a string,
Hands are bloody but still holding.

You know how much I want to let go,
Unleash this flesh to the one it misses so,
But this heart of mine I worship not, no!
I bow to the One who turns it - my Lord!
credit to aiman azlan

Accept yourself as YOU.

Let us grab some barakah from the piece of greet which is 


how wonderful it is if i can deliver the miracle word to the people around me even if i never knew them before. unfortunately, people would think i'm a weird person. i have less gut on that. bitter as gall. that's the reality of the world approaching the Judgement Day. nauzubillah :'(

revert to the main topic.
ever read this before?

Dari Abu Hurairah, Rasulullah shallallahu ‘alaihi wa sallam bersabda,
انظروا إلى من هو أسفل منكم ولا تنظروا إلى من هو فوقكم ، فهو أجدر أن لا تزدروا نعمة الله عليكم
“Pandanglah orang yang berada di bawahmu (dalam masalah harta dan dunia) dan janganlah engkau pandang orang yang berada di atasmu (dalam masalah ini). Dengan demikian, hal itu akan membuatmu tidak meremehkan nikmat Allah padamu.” (HR. Bukhari dan Muslim)

oh men. I'm kinda disappointed with myself; every time i'm unconsciously fascinated with others' superiority. i felt weak. yet the worst part i've ever faced was being overwhelmed with ungratefulness. fortuitously, i remembered this hadith. sense of gladness came shortly after that. alhamdulillah.

frankly, i don't prefer to see others' bless in their life. *jealous?* yes of course i am. girls are easily get jealous than boys and i admit it. you must think i'm a bad girl eh? ah lantak. i'm happy when my friends happy, but sometimes when they look like showing off their life blessings, eventhough it's not so significant *you know what i mean* i think it is something detestable. 

sorry i have no intention to hurt anyone. this is reality.

so people. let's be patient for the tests that Allah give us. if you have a sudden jealousy towards someone, just think that each blessings that we got, each of those have certain responsible for us to be undertaken.

imagine how Allah will ask us in the Judgment Day. by a breath, what benefit that we've done? :'(

in retrospect, i really like to see those 'perfect muslimah' out there. i know that they're just normal people like me, but they have something that i didn't have. shame on me. hope that one day i can be like them..

o heart. just be patient.

Sunday, December 9, 2012

how many years .

she bet he decided not to contact her anymore through any medium even facebook.
and she thought that is the best decision for him and herself.

So glad that he knew what to do. even if it hurt her. all that ran along that girl's mind is...

"is this over?"
"can i let others approach as my next choice?"
"will this far distance relationship works. without communication??" 
"what if...."

many undesirable whisper came. she was totally confused. yet she decided to ask someone who knew more about the person she care. a junior in his school.

"if you're meant to be with him, don't worry. Allah have decided each person with their own spouses in their lives.." he said suddenly, even he never knew what's in the girl's mind.

that simple word of wisdom reassured her for believing in miracles of Allah. yes, nothing is impossible. just that, if you're hoping so badly to make him your spouse one day, you'll probably get hurt, if that thing happens contradict to your wish. that's why, don't take 'soal jodoh' so seriously right now.

but she believes...

"bad women are for bad men, and bad men, for bad women - just as good women are for good men, and good men, for good women.." [surah an nur ayat 26]

yes. she always remembers the promise that He made. what should she do now? be a good girl. not just that, but to be a 'true muslimah'. a label which is so hard to be grabbed especially for a girl who is not used to be it from the beginning. she must try her best.

things got even worse when she knows that TODAY he will fly somewhere else, far away from this country. he will go, without leaving a word. he never told that he would be somewhere else. she knew, only from the junior on the day before. such a pathetic. 

somewhat, she ever felt annoyed. why he ever came to her life? why things must be like this? how she wished that she never knew him. because it hurts her now. and maybe gonna hurt her year after year. execrable, how execrable.

however, she tries to calm herself. there must be something behind all of these. everything happens for a reason. Allah tests each person with different challenges. He tests the Palestinians by physical means, and He tests us here, in Malaysia, mentally. people thought that both type of challenges are lopsided. in fact, either physically or mentally, both have internal abstract meanings. #ehhhh? ok what type of horrible sentence is this -.-"

well. what happen next? the girl needs to wait patiently. for about 6 years maybe? only Allah knows......

Saturday, December 1, 2012

Heaven on Earth.

assalamualaikum. please answer it even in your heart (for the mute people only) ihiks :3

alhamdulillah , i got strength to type for another post. this goodness verily from Allah s.w.t. 

honestly, i don't really understand myself. do you understand yourself? i bet you're lying to yourself if you say "yes" . ahaa.

i just got some lessons after attending an islamic program entitled Best Tarbiyah. it is just a small program handle by mahallah representive committee. and do you know whatttt....?

at the beginning i was hesitated to make my own way to the 'musolla mahallah' (surau ground floor hostel). i've asked few of my friends before that. unfortunately, none of them could follow me. me was really sad TT____TT . BUT, suddenly;

"Why must you go there if only you need someone accompany you?"

"This is only about you and your deeds (amalan) in the Judgment Day. your friend has nothing to do with you..."

"Don't make excuse for a good thing. It's only qarin's  whisper." 

Thanks to Allah that He gave me some kind of whisper which encourage me to go there by only me and myself. I stepped to the ground floor calmly then.

We've began with Taaruf (ice breaking). I was shocked to know that most of the participants are from mahallah zainab, not mahallah khadijah (where i live). Moreover, there are also from Mahsa College and UPM. it was a jaw-dropping one, to know their endeavor of going to cfs iium (from farther place than mine) just to join a small 'majlis ilm'. subhanallah. I should be really grateful to stay in a place with lots of 'majlis ilm' promoted everyday. not only me, also my friends here. yes, they should.

Along the program, i've met many friends here. not the ordinary one. most of them are very good in religion speech and also have strong faith in Islam. indeed, it's true what our Prophet s.a.w said, "majlis ilm is garden(heaven) on Earth". We can meet many muslimah with solehah personality, thus make them as our companion to get Allah pleasure, inshaa Allah :)

In fact, i was a very weak person. my iman could be up and down. when no one there to guide me, i would certainly get engrossed thus being neglect of any lagha things i've done. i would only do good deeds when someone invite me to. this is what they call 'iman ikut ikut'. nauzubillah. i'm trying to improve. inshaa Allah.

Eventually, the program ended up with a smile from the bottom of my heart. I got something that I've wished before this. I was really thankful to have a chance to mingle around with those girls. BUT that doesn't mean that my mission is completed yet. I still have many 'amanah' to be implemented. mostly amanah to convey truth to my family and friends around me. may Allah ease.

For those who felt their life has been even bored, better watch out your iiman. it may be fluctuated, or even worse, it may be decreased gradually from day to day. That's why, we need to be close to *at least* a soleh(ah) person. where to find? of course, in majlis ilm.. inshaa Allah :)