Need to throw this thing out. now !
haha. okey chillex. take a deep breath.....breath out.
The story is like this. *manglish much ignore those* Lately, i'm feeling something cheesy. but not as tasty as a cheese though. it's a matter regarding on what the muslims call it 'ikhtilat'. how crazy i am with this thing ? eheh. it makes me feel uncomfortable. feel insecure. i.n.s.e.k.y.o.r.e. yah that's it.
U know what about architecture students are like? i heard that 'they' said... "zombie" , "soulless" , and ohh that "unsociable" kinda person? nahh u're totally wrong. archi students mostly are sociable. as we always meet among ourselves everyday every night staying in le studio. idk where they got that idea about archistudentsarenotsocial watsoever. and back to the real topic, actually this sociable thingy, sometimes making me feel uneasy. the western pepol would say "hey wats the prob? its normal thou" but for me, we as muslims are supposedly keep the DISTANCE between man and woman which are nonmaharam when INTERACTING. unfortunately, it can't be controlled. it depends on each individual whether to make it as a concern ...or not.
Actually i dont really care if they wanna do what they want. even though sometimes i have the urge to tell the truth, to play my role as a muslim(nehi mungkar). muslim towards a muslim. aha. but that occurs seldomly. or i can just consider it as never ? TT_____TT ok i know how bad i am. i'm not strong enough to do that, to convey directly, personally. may Allah ease someday. BUT one day i accidently having a long contemplation bout this ikhtilat prob, deeply think on how to reduce it *from becoming worse day by day until i'm used to it ? (nauzubillah!)*. good thing the thought came just that friday Alhamdulillah. and that's why, i am really 'enthuastic' to blurt out everything in this so-unfamous-dusty-blog then with ma english which is tunggang tebalik. haa padan! :B
Usually the 'insecurity alarm' activated in a grouping work *which sometimes involving more boys than girls* or when i'm sitting at my place in my studio then some of the guys approaching and ask something either it's important or pointless *because of the strategic coordinate of my table in le studio* wanna know where? go to my studio i'll show kekeke.
One thing that i wanna stressssss on this lovely evening,
I know that i'm not that muslimah tudung labuh. i'm not that girl who always alert on the mistakes i'm doing. i always have the probability to forgot on something or being engrossed when i'm in certain duniawi situation. but please, keep your distance from me or any other muslimah. i mean, you guys. and mostly the guys who always purposely getting near to unmaharam girls without any valid reason. some girls, they're not brave enough to tell directly on the uncomfortable situation they're facing *nak jaga hati lah katekan* but deep inside, they wanna refrain those sinful things. but malangnyelahh ad jugk beberapa hamba Allah ni, org jauh dia nak dekat org ke tepi dia lg ke tepi hailaaa lempang sikit meh ? byk pun boleh :3 and i refer to some of my girlfrens not me only.
Sometimes i silently observed on how my friends talking to each other *oops kantoi*. not to judge but i'm trying to learn from them too. on wat should i do if im in such such situation...fight or flight? meheheh takde kaitan. thus, this school essay is not for me only, i'm hoping if u, as a reader could take a minute and think about it can you? ha tanak bole blah. e eh. okbai.
wanna read more about ikhtilat? go here : Allah Seeker : Ikhtilat
this post kinda bias isnt it? haha actually it's for both men n women. just that i have less time on how to balance it. gomenasai !